| Keeeemon
No more cutting, no more purging, no more starving.
Getting 'stay strong' on my arm in white. Dedication. I am going to fucking recover and be normal.
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| 200 crunches
200 press ups
200 burpees
Every single day.
And if I get them all done in the morning.
Do them again at night.
It's payday on Friday. It's also my birthday on Friday, my mum is going away on Sunday for a week.
Next day off after pay day is tongue webbing piercing day.
And I'm getting 'stay strong' tattooed in white on my forearm, paying my friends back for gig tickets, I'm also buying a couple of crates and having people over. |
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| Gained from yesterday.
But that was to be expected when you binge like a motherfucker, only purge a tiny bit and only have osmotic laxatives.
Then again, I have still lost 0.6lbs over 2 days, which is not a total fuck up I guess.
My mom is going on holiday for a week in a week and a half. I'm so looking forward to being able to restrict so much without the temptation of her cooking me food/bringing food home.
Also free house means as much purging as required.
I'm more excited for her going away than I am about it being my birthday the day before.
I'm going to see Brand New tomorrow, I genuinely think I'm going to die with happiness.
I've had 164 calories today, I was planning on fasting but I'm going to try and not have anything else throughout the day.
The laxatives are working now too which is good/irritating since I'm at work today.
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| Fucking 1500+ calories at once.
I was doing fucking well today aswell.
So, so pissed off with myself. |
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| I fasted on saturday, except for the alcohol.
Then yesterday I got up and I was so hungover and shaky and my legs felt like they were going to give way.
I had to go back to bed, then I was 15 minutes late for work.
I also never ever eat at work, 9 hour shifts and I might go for a cigarette but I never get food. I hope nobody asks me about it.
On saturday night I also relapsed with cutting and cut scarily deep. It's closing up now (thank fuck) but at work yesterday I could feel it opening up when I moved my leg too much. U_U
I have no money, but I get to go see Brand New on thursday, I'm incredibly excited.
I can't wait to get paid,
as soon as I do I'm getting tongue webbing pierced, and I really want the inside of my lip tattooed but I don't know what yet.
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